I am no longer here

I am here.

A chicken at zero feels no pain

I mimic people

because I have never been happy with who I am.
I act how, I've assumed, people would prefer me to act.

And I'm tired.

I've been doing this for so long, I've lost myself.

But now, in my disorientation, I've never seen myself more clearly.

Richard Learoyd

Brendon Burton

I have utterly, and with zero hesitation, jumped on the Billie Eilish wagon

A goal of mine is to be published in one of my favorite literary magazines

The Sun.

I have submitted a dozen times and have been politely rejected.

That's part of what makes is worth it though, isn't it? The rejection makes the trying that more exciting. I don't always feel this way but I do believe it as truth; and I don't think on this enough. The competition and hustle - I'm not very good with it. But that's part of my struggle, it is what I will learn and work my way through, hopefully, to bloom on the other side.

Here is the work of my rejections:

The Paintings of Eileen Senner